used to think

I wrote this in one of my down times and it had a really disturbing title then but its changed now. It may not make any meaning to you because its short with not a lot of words but i hope you understand it still. its spoken word and would have more effect if i read it to you with the emotion lol

Life
Confusing, Depressing
Cutting Crying Questioning
A Never Ending Struggle
Pointless

Dear Lord God

There is a Lord who loves little old me
Even though sin resides deeply in I
I am confused, I wonder how this can be
For my sins, Jesus decided to die
Is there anything I can say or do
To get rid of this awful guilt inside?
I don't know when the wind blew
He died because I have cheated and lied
Jesus tells me that he knows how I feel
That he understands all that bothers my heart
Lord, give me assurance that this is real
Can I have a completely brand-new start?
Now I'm happy beyond my wildest dreams
My Savior is truly wonderful, it seems.